Our fears reveal what we care about the most
Hey Urban Fantastic Family
Hope your doing well and enjoying the
weekend.
I was thoroughly enjoying the Academy Awards and totally engrossed with the drama and the accolades. As you know I love film as much as I love books and seeing all my idols across the Hollywood spectrum was thrilling indeed.
One of the things I love to do when this season comes around is listen to the stars acceptance speeches after being
awarded the golden statue. This year was even more poignant for me as Mahershala Ali and Viola Davis - two of my favourite actors were recognised by the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Science.
Something I see a lot from their emotional outpouring of gratitude is the surprise and self doubt they feel about their talent. Most of us look at it as humility or a self deprecation. But most experience deep feelings of inadequacy no matter what heights of achievement they reach. I honestly believe that without the feeling of uncertainty about your talent, your story or your life, you would not
strive to do better.
The advice is sort of counter intuitive because we get told 'Self doubt is the enemy of creativity' but just think about what it takes to become great. None of the autobiographies of great men and women I have read, have not experienced self-doubt in some form or the other. What is certain it can be a great motivator. There is always that niggling doubt in the progressive mind
on how to improve their art, skills or their life. Insecurity drove them to keep sharp, never resting on your laurels.
To be honest, my author experience is riddled with self-doubt and although I remain true to my vision, I question whether I'm giving you the reader the best I can give. I feel inadequate and question whether I'm talented enough to do what I do but self doubt for me is a
driving force to do better. I will never stop producing and never stop creating.
